MEND BACK WHAT'S FRACTURED BEFORE IT'S REALLY BROKEN. PLEASE.
1 day ago
Monday, 2 November 2009
Thursday, 22 October 2009
puzzled. and down.
that's exactly how i feel.
i dont know whether its because im stressed with the assignments, projects, and exams. or perhaps maybe there's another reason behind it.
i woke up with my eyes swollen. it rained last nite. thanks tasha, for comforting me. i love you.
mood's off today. things haven't been going right. maybe im just a little too emotional these past few days. can i blame it on my menses? ok.
i wanna sleep. but im in school. i wanna go home.
i need a hug. ='(
Wednesday, 30 September 2009
almost...
Ain loves this song. =) this one's for you my dear.
p/s: i easily let people get in then jump right out of my life, don't i? hermph...
Monday, 31 August 2009
im uploading this here sebab i rasa kiut. =P
-picture removed-
sorry peeps!
ini blog saya so suka hati saya la okay? =) haha! ngegeh melaram depan cermin besa rah paxen. ain, now u have a hensem gang okay? =)
supposedly, now, i should be doing my Process Principles assignment, which is due tomorrow. I haven't even started, because i have no idea on how to do the 3 questions. Can i cry?
mid-term's in two weeks time. im so left behind. bodoh belum sedar diri lagi. stupid FOCUS, i need you back! can i wind back time?
Tuesday, 4 August 2009
staying home
since im staying home for a few days, and i'm left with nothing much to do, i decided to do this.
ini budak-budak curtin. celebrated Ellen's 21st birthday last week.
a picture of me with the birthday girl.
Group photo, pity Adrian, he got cut off from the picture. waiter sajian warisan xda skill amik gambar!
the sisterhood. essehmen.
sandwiched between nick and tuffy. tuffy wanted to take pictures with nick, but nick wouldn't let me leave his side. thus, the squishing-seetah-in-between.
with mei wen.
this is tuffy. i like making faces when i take pictures, so yeah. =Pyou should probably be wondering why is it that im staying home, since everyone else is in school attending classes. let me shed some light unto you.
for the past four days, i've been feeling feverish, my body's aching, and i started getting headaches.
my asthma attack has been frequent lately. not severe ones tho, mild ones.
two days ago, i caught flu, and my eyes get all watery.
yesterday, i start coughing.
So,
1. Fever - check
2. Body aches - check
3. Headache - check
4. Difficulty breathing, Asthma - check
5. Flu - check
6. Coughing - check
With the now-ongoing pandemic of the A H1N1 flu, i have like what? 6 out of 8 common symptoms. Wtf that's like more than half already!!!
Okay, so it was like this, actually. Yesterday i went to class as usual, although i know i wasn't feeling so good. Sensed something wasn't right, but i tried shaking off that feeling. My flu was bad that morning, to add it all up, i started coughing. So my friends were concerned (of course la, with the disease going around, curtin lagi, with all the international students and what not), and they told me i should go and get myself checked-up. Texted my mom, told her that my friends are telling me i have most of the symptoms. So she told me to go to the health center on campus, and i did just that right after class.
The health officer, Sheryl Mattu was so sweet when she welcomed me in. "Hello dear, you're not feeling well today are you?". Told her what's wrong with me, how i felt and everything. She took my temperature, and told me i was at the higher end of normal. Then, with a nice and sweet and caring voice, she said "Oh dear, it seems that you're on the way to getting the flu." Oh crap! Nice way to make me feel all calm and not panicky, no? So i asked her, should i go to the clinic and see the doctor and all. She said if my temperature is still in the normal range, there's no need to. She said to come by everyday to get my temp checked.
As soon as i got out, i rang my mom. Met up with her at the cafeteria, and told her what Sheryl told me. "Mak! She told me i was on the way to getting the flu!". Mom said to go to the clinic, and so i did. But the stupid thing is i went alone. I drove all the way to and fro Dr. Arif's, alone with my stupid headache where at times i feel like my veins were about to pop! I guess luck was on my side that i didn't lose control of the car or fainted while driving because i have been passing out quite a number of times lately which i dont know why. Note to self: if u'r sick, don't drive.
Dah i check-up, Dr. Arif didn't say anything tho, i guess he didn't want to cause panic, but his looks were really concerned. He gave me sick-leave for two days. The symptoms were there. Most of it. I'm a suspected case. Bongok ada orang dah mati in miri because of this! Best la sangat. A really nice way to start the semester. Last week was already a horrible week for me, and now this! Thank you very much i dont know what to expect next.
I went home, trying not to think about it. Made fun of the sakit, made fun of myself, trying to sound all happy and told myself it was nothing, and i'll be okay in no time. I did just that for the next few hours, until... my tummy didn't feel so good and i wanted to vommit. "Vommitting? Fuck, now that's another one, no!" i restrained myself from vomitting because if i were to do another check-up, i don't want them to put a nice big TICK on the check-list for vommitting, along with all the other symptoms. Then, i freaked-out. I cried. Like seriously, bodoh, i cried because i was scared and freaked-out like if you were in my shoes you'd pee and poop in your pants like wth!
Couldn't sleep soundly last night. Mom came in to check-up on me, check on my temperature. Woke up this morning, feeling all the same. Badan panas sikit kot. I made sure i took my meds this morning. I just hope everything's gonna be fine. Gila doa banyak2 now.
I love you people. I wanna go read some lecture slides now. Eh, no... Sick-leave bah. i should rest, hoh? Heehee. Sayang you all kuat-kuat!
for the past four days, i've been feeling feverish, my body's aching, and i started getting headaches.
my asthma attack has been frequent lately. not severe ones tho, mild ones.
two days ago, i caught flu, and my eyes get all watery.
yesterday, i start coughing.
So,
1. Fever - check
2. Body aches - check
3. Headache - check
4. Difficulty breathing, Asthma - check
5. Flu - check
6. Coughing - check
With the now-ongoing pandemic of the A H1N1 flu, i have like what? 6 out of 8 common symptoms. Wtf that's like more than half already!!!
Okay, so it was like this, actually. Yesterday i went to class as usual, although i know i wasn't feeling so good. Sensed something wasn't right, but i tried shaking off that feeling. My flu was bad that morning, to add it all up, i started coughing. So my friends were concerned (of course la, with the disease going around, curtin lagi, with all the international students and what not), and they told me i should go and get myself checked-up. Texted my mom, told her that my friends are telling me i have most of the symptoms. So she told me to go to the health center on campus, and i did just that right after class.
The health officer, Sheryl Mattu was so sweet when she welcomed me in. "Hello dear, you're not feeling well today are you?". Told her what's wrong with me, how i felt and everything. She took my temperature, and told me i was at the higher end of normal. Then, with a nice and sweet and caring voice, she said "Oh dear, it seems that you're on the way to getting the flu." Oh crap! Nice way to make me feel all calm and not panicky, no? So i asked her, should i go to the clinic and see the doctor and all. She said if my temperature is still in the normal range, there's no need to. She said to come by everyday to get my temp checked.
As soon as i got out, i rang my mom. Met up with her at the cafeteria, and told her what Sheryl told me. "Mak! She told me i was on the way to getting the flu!". Mom said to go to the clinic, and so i did. But the stupid thing is i went alone. I drove all the way to and fro Dr. Arif's, alone with my stupid headache where at times i feel like my veins were about to pop! I guess luck was on my side that i didn't lose control of the car or fainted while driving because i have been passing out quite a number of times lately which i dont know why. Note to self: if u'r sick, don't drive.
Dah i check-up, Dr. Arif didn't say anything tho, i guess he didn't want to cause panic, but his looks were really concerned. He gave me sick-leave for two days. The symptoms were there. Most of it. I'm a suspected case. Bongok ada orang dah mati in miri because of this! Best la sangat. A really nice way to start the semester. Last week was already a horrible week for me, and now this! Thank you very much i dont know what to expect next.
I went home, trying not to think about it. Made fun of the sakit, made fun of myself, trying to sound all happy and told myself it was nothing, and i'll be okay in no time. I did just that for the next few hours, until... my tummy didn't feel so good and i wanted to vommit. "Vommitting? Fuck, now that's another one, no!" i restrained myself from vomitting because if i were to do another check-up, i don't want them to put a nice big TICK on the check-list for vommitting, along with all the other symptoms. Then, i freaked-out. I cried. Like seriously, bodoh, i cried because i was scared and freaked-out like if you were in my shoes you'd pee and poop in your pants like wth!
Couldn't sleep soundly last night. Mom came in to check-up on me, check on my temperature. Woke up this morning, feeling all the same. Badan panas sikit kot. I made sure i took my meds this morning. I just hope everything's gonna be fine. Gila doa banyak2 now.
I love you people. I wanna go read some lecture slides now. Eh, no... Sick-leave bah. i should rest, hoh? Heehee. Sayang you all kuat-kuat!
Thursday, 9 July 2009
Wednesday, 8 July 2009
emo
my posts have been all emo kan for the past few months? ntah. my feelings are still all mixed up, susah mok detach kan. my emotions are like strings you know, once it gets all jumbled, its hard for me to untangle them.
im still trying to figure things out, and do whatever is best for me. everyday, i've been asking from HIM, the Almighty. i asked to be given the strength, i asked to be given the courage, i asked for him to do what's best for me, and i asked for him to show me what's right, and what's wrong.
rasanya, petunjuk ya maseh sesat jalan kot. HE's trying to show me something, but it's not really clear yet. i guess i'll have to try harder, and upgrade lagi whatever it is that i'm doing right now. i really need help in making the right decision. i don't want to regret at the end of the day. i want to leave, saying that i tried my very best.
complicated kan, my situation? i've been trying to make it less complicated, but i end up feeling all confused. i want to complain, but there are still things that i have to keep to myself. hermph. i feel shitty la.
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